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Love is a Feeling I Will Never ForgetEvery breath with purpose,
Every step with reason,
Love is like the summer,
And it outlasts every season.
Every glance a bond to earth,
Every touch magic begun,
Love is like a burning flame,
And it burns brighter than the sun.
Every embrace a quiet relief,
Every bit of warmth extended,
Love is like a saving light,
A feeling I can now only imagine.
Every doubt you chose to wonder,
Every fault that you never explored,
Love is like a burning rose,
It now withers inside my core.
Speak your worry, resolve, express,
To avoid sadness, anger, and regret.
Love is a feeling I never wanted to lose,
But now love is a feeling I will never forget.
Untitled2Life feels like I'm wrangled,
Between about a hundred ropes.
Everyone keeps pulling in different directions.
When I fall forward, the backward side is angry.
When I fall backwards, the forward side is jealous.
And then there are those who have given up on their rope.
And what about me?
I'm laying on the ground in the middle of it all.
I can't seem to choose correctly so I remain by myself.
The world moves on without me,
Leaving me behind.
Yeah...that's definitely all I ever wanted.
UntitledSave me from my sadness, God.
Save me from my fears.
Life feels like a nightmare, God.
I keep opening my eyes thinking I'll wake up,
But I never do...
You're my only hope
Just OnceSometimes I wish I could snap my fingers and stop time.
After that, I'd unzip the sky and jump into it's seams,
I'd get away from the world.
I'd be endlessly drifting on puffy clouds,
And bask in the light of a million stars shining all around me.
I'd let music seep into my heart and watch it rip out my burdens.
I'd be forever in your arms.
I'd be forever laughing and smiling with all of my loved ones.
If only I could escape for just one day...
WarTrapped in this war,
No one is winning.
Bullet after bullet,
I have fallen before you.
You hide in the foliage,
You push everyone out to battle,
While you hide,
While you pull me down,
With your twisted words,
Your rolling eyes,
Your raging tone.
I live everyday believing:
"Today is the day I will fall,"
And I will keep falling,
Scars will open up once more.
I will keep waving my little white flag,
Even after it's been torn, shot, and ripped...
Is this war never ending?
InvisibleLiving in a bubble I feel all alone,
But reliving the past feels like a good home.
Suffocate me with the joys of younger days,
Numb me, don't let me see the outside!
The time you made me laugh so hard I cried,
You all came to visit me when I could have died,
The nights we'd stay up dreaming and scheming,
Fictional inspirations and dreams of the future.
Watching tv til the wee morning hours,
Racing through the warm summer showers,
Talking intensely and perfectly fine,
Always knowing we'd be close all throughout time.
Reaching out I hope to catch your hands,
But you pull them away and give them to a man.
Pounding on the walls, begging you to hear,
Never aware that behind that bubble there have been so many tears.
As you all drift away, none say goodbye,
Because life is perfect under your rose-colored sky.
But I will keep waving until you finally see,
That faint figure of sorrow, is no one but me.
Thou Shall be StrongForbidden Fruit of sanctitity,
How can I not think of thee,
How can I not speak of thee,
How can I not taste thee?
Why art thou amidst my dreams?
Thine charm whispers and embraces me.
Guilty that I dreamed a dream,
Questioning everything of me.
Awakening leaves a sense of sadness,
Disappointment of real life,
And shame of going him against,
I am feeling things in many senses.
An uneasy mind is the worst of all,
If thou is tempted thou will fall,
Thou will lay there on the ground,
Still questioning if thou be sound.
If thou be sound,
When no person is around,
If thou be sound,
When the hour comes around...
If thou be sound and thou be true,
Hide such thoughts whence thou knew,
And shall you dream of thee anon,
Fall thou not, thou shall be strong.
Broken EyesTake a part of me,
Take a little heart from me,
And piece back the broken eyes.
Shattered on the floor,
A wave upon the shore,
The mist from my broken eyes.
How long will it take to fix my sight?
Cuz all I can see is what I'm not doing right.
Take me beautiful and set me free,
Let's wander off into the distant sea.
It's hard to keep so silent,
When my mind waves crash upon the walls,
Of a broken mind.
Every single day you pass,
Is like an hourglass,
I can't hold it inside.
How long will it take to free those words,
I love you darling, you don't know how much it hurts!
Give me a sign that the sun will shine,
Show the sunset behind your eyes!
Behind your eyes
Behind your eyes
With the morning rise,
I will let those feelings die,
Looking past my broken eyes....
Who is a Friend?Who is a friend who cannot let go?
Strings held tight to a single heart,
Victim unable to seek out and grow.
The victim's decisions controlled by one,
Who cuddles, then strangles emotions,
They ring her out until the final tear falls.
She covers her eyes.
Who is a friend who cannot smile?
Face tightly clenched and wide-eyed,
It's hard to please them for a while.
One simple word could avalanche,
Words of anger, hatred, and vile,
They put her down til' her confidence falls.
She covers her mouth.
Who is a friend who tunes people out?
They've got her on AM, a cover of static,
She changes channels but no words come out.
They don't have time to be with her,
They don't have ears that will listen to her,
They don't have a heart to care about her.
She covers her ears.
Who is a friend who talks behind backs?
Who whispers in ears and laughs,
A wall of trust overcome with cracks.
They say things that she hears buzz by,
And makes her wonder why she's alive.
And makes her wonder
I Tear My Skin AwayI Tear My Skin Away
I tear this skin from my body,
Even if the world screams,
That I am only an illusion.
I tear the bones from my legs,
Through pain, I will grow,
Through suffering, I will become.
I rip the muscles from my arms,
These teeth from my jaws...
And with nothing upon me,
I carry on...
Like a broken puppet, still shivering,
Still forcing its way through the darkness;
I tremble for I am nothing...
And yet, I am moving. My voice still screams...
I draw breath into these tired lungs,
As I rip the flesh away...
And I shatter these mirrors before me,
With a voice that will not break:
Because the world cannot label me as nothing,
And I will live for my own sake!
"So tell me, is that all the pain you've got for me?"
I screamMy scream is loud.
My scream is honest.
My scream is desperate.
My scream is filled with truth.
Why would nobody hear me?
dearly belovedthese days
your name has been slipping
in and out of my rib cage
my heart forgets to beat.
how even after all these months i still
don't want to believe that
you're dead. how during the
first couple of weeks i prayed
to a god i didn't believe in and begged to know
if death tasted sweet to you. how once,
when the monsters in my head
didn't let me sleep, i
wrote you three poems and then
you were a supernova that
lit up my life for
a few radiant moments before,
like all good things in this
you came to an end.
the sinner in me hopes that you have wings now.
but i think that,
most of all,
i hope you no longer
remember what pain
Those Green Eyes (Or: Don't Lie to Your Kid)Those green eyes -
The green of joy
The green of hope
The green of love and acceptance -
Were always full of lies.
They first lied when I said,
After a nightmare at four am
When I was too small to reach a light switch,
“Will you ever leave me?”
And those eyes said,
Why did those green eyes
Shut when I needed them most?
"Are you okay?"
Would be a red line
That I would etch into myself
Those green eyes melted.
Those green eyes did shine
And I knew what it was -
I was young, not stupid -
But I indulged the lie,
For those green eyes.
"Will it get better?"
I asked one sunny Saturday
At ten in the morning
And those green eyes looked away;
“And you’ll be here forever?”
There were no words.
I made up my own affirmative.
Those green eyes -
When they saw
How I’d rubbed myself raw
notes on a matchbook love.if I were the type
to say how I really felt,
I'd tell you that
I hope you choke on your apologies
like they're arsenic
and your nails are already
with the poison.
I'd let you know
that I'll never be a body
for you to touch
just because I know that's all you want.
I'll never be a fairy in a bottle
at your waist.
this is no storybook, and
I am no myth.
hear my silence,
feel the cold absence
respond to your weak "I'm sorry"s.
I beg you,
stop digging the hole,
stop, just stop.
Hush and watch the flames
engulf the image you sold me.
you can tell me
I'm beautiful as much
as you want,
but I know that it's not enough,
that you'll always want more,
that you've been a wolf
between my legs all this time
and my fingers are bruised
from holding the leash.
now every time you whisper
"please be okay",
I will always tell you that
I'm fine, I'm fine, I'm fine.
I will forever pretend
that I've grown up from you,
that I've become a mystery
Let me dieGo away
Leave me alone
And let me die
Of this world
I don't want to live
Because there's no light
At the end of this tunnel
So I'll just end my life
Don't try to stop me
And we'll meet again
On the other side
Outside this dark tunnel
Wrists.Wrists are not made,
To be cut up by cold blades.
Blood was meant to stay in your veins,
Not to be drained.
From your body,
You're stronger than that,
I know a person can only take,
Until they break.
And you have your doubts,
And when you lay in bed,
The pain is all you think about.
But you're so much more,
Than your heart aches.
So much more,
Than your demons.
Even if you feel,
Like your dying,
And you are through with trying,
Because all you've been doing lately is crying.
I want you to know,
That no, you're not alone.
And you re going to survive.
Please just drop your knife,
Because you're going to,
Make it out alive.
words, wonderlight has faded and words are heavy,
but there is a delicate magic
twisting between your fingers.
it is all a-scribble
melisma without music;
syllables stitching terra firma
to firmament in intricate
stanzas that require
neither breath nor sound
to echo, infinite,
within the depths
of susurrous souls.
it is cold and it is dark,
but there is a fire in you
and you use it with a fierce grace
that illuminates the shadows,
and ignites the demons
until not even the grey spaces
that haunt and harry
can hold dominion.
they are exposed
they are broken
into shards of sunrise
and rays of a quiet
you scare away the night
with exhalations that blow
away the fogged emptiness
inside, over and over,
sparking fireworks from
what was thought
to be ash.
Just TalkWhy don't you smile anymore?- I miss it.
Why won't you ever tell me what's wrong?- I always feel like it's me...
Why do you seem so different?- you don't seem alive.
Do you still think of me?- Cuz I think of you.
Do you still love me?- Cuz I love you so much.
I wish you would just tell me.
Just talk to me. Please.
Just. Talk. <3
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